Still alive

Hey everyone! I'm still alive, just very very stressed at the moment. But what's new, that's probably just my life! I really appreciate everyones comments though. They do help me remember my motivation. I'm at 306 now. I am still doing zumba every night that I can and just really watching calories. I tried this hi-energy thing for about two weeks but I found it to be way too restrictive and ended up doing it the way I know has worked best for me in the past. How is everyone else doing?

Day 14

So today I did pretty good. I have really been thinking through some stuff and I think I may have figured out one of my emotional issues. I'm gonna keep pondering it and I will post about it when I am sure about it.
How is everyone else doing? Hope e drying had a good st pats day!

Until next time 8)

Day 13

Yesterday was yuck yuck yuck. For some reason I decided to eat everything in sight. I also decided to start a food journal and for some reason that made me want to eat more! It was crazy!!! Anyway, I did do much better with eating today.
My mom also took me shopping for some new clothes today and that was awful! I mean really, at this weight what is the point?!? The only shopping I do these days is for the kids. Their clothes are a lot cheaper anyway lol.
I had announced Monday I was starting the couch to 5k program that day but it has been put off to next Monday because I possibly have someone interested in doing it with me, so we will see. Zumba is still coming along though diligently at least 5 night/ week. I'm thinking about weighing in the morning because hopefully I will have lost some and it will cheer me up.

Day 11

Soo... Anyone miss me? Hahaha, no truthfully Friday I didnt post because after watching all the tragedies going on all day all I wanted to do that night was lay down and cuddle with my kids. Who wants to read someone's whining when there are waayyy worse things in the world?!?

So today was weigh in day and I made the mistake of stepping on the scales midday instead of first thing in the morning. And....dum dum dumdum..312, two pounds up. Which I know weight can fluctuate throughout the day but I'm thinking at the very least it means I didn't lose anything. So I am trying to think back about what I might have done wrong and I am really not sure. I do know that all my hormones are not "put back together as they should be" as im not quite six weeks post partum. Maybe it has something to do with that.

So anyone watch Ruby last night?? What do you think her secret is?? Do you think it's true that all overweight people are as such because they are trying to hide their secret? Ps, heard a rumor someone is disqualified on BL, anyone have any guesses??

Day 7 but not a "weak" yet!!

So as I mentioned the stress yesterday, it just keeps getting worse.  Please give me a few minutes to whine, then I'll eat my cheese with it and shut up!  As I have said, I am currently on maternity leave for another week and one day.  Because I had just started my job when I found out I was prego, I did not have enough time saved up to take the entire time off paid.  Therefore, I had enough time to space out over my six weeks to cover the insurance costs and the rest of it was LWOP.  Last week I found out that they were trying to short me two days I had "paid", I had even called to verify the amount of leave I had a couple of weeks before I went on leave so something like this would not happen!!!  So today I call the head honchos to get it straightened out and get nowhere.  Why did they even want me to call?????  To reiterate that they were still going to screw me over?  I guess so...  Anyway, that's part of what is going on.

I did do pretty good today with my diet considering normally at this point I would have been eating everything in site.  Each time I decided to eat something throughout the day I would question myself, am I really hungry or is this the stress talking.  Hooray for me!  And I found yesterday from a very special helper Jendi, that there are several events in my area I can participate in for charity and hopefully get to run my first 5K before the spring is over!  http://www.active.com/ if anyone is interested.  These people will be in disbelief when they see someone in the upper 200s show up at the starting line (at least I hope I will be out of the 300s by then!).  LOL!  I am going to follow the couch to 5k method (http://www.cto5k.com/, I think..) which she also recommended and I have a friend who has been doing this for some time now and she is getting great results as well.  I think she is up to 2.5 miles after 4 months so she is taking it slowly but surely.

I did my zumba tonight and my little girl who is 2.5 yo LOVES to dance so anything that resembles dancing she wants to do.  She is consitantly saying "mommy, lets do zumba!"  Makes me proud to hear her say that.  However, she informed me tonight that i had to pull my shirt up to show my belly like the girls do on the DVD in order to do it correctly.  HAHAHA...if she only knew.  Gotta love little ones and their innocence though!  I can promise yall, until I am the size of the girls on the DVD with no jiggling, i will not be pulling my shirt up so yall won't have to keep your eyes covered!!!!!

Hope everyone else's journies are going well too.  Weather is supposed to be in the 80's by next week so its gonna be awesome outside weather!
Until tomorrow... 8)

Day 6

Sooo, some very stressful stuff going on right now and there is nothing that can be done to fix it. This next week to maybe the next couple of months will be a true test to see how I can handle my eating. When I first have something hit me that I consider bad news or uber stressful, I am initially sick at my stomach and then after I have had a few hours to start sorting things out I begin to eat everything in site, especially sweets. So today at lunch is when I first started encountering the situation and I could not eat the chicken salad I had. So I saved the chicken off of it as the rest does not save well in my opinion, and I had it for a snack a few hours later. All in all i think I did ok today on the eating. I had a rest day today as far as exercise goes...my first in seven days so I am ok with that.
Any of you out there single parents of YOUNG children, like young enough they still depend on you for all their needs? I know I am married but for the most part I feel like a single parent for various reasons and I am having some real difficulty getting a weekday routine in that includes exercise. Right now I can exercise because I am still on maternity leave but there's only another week left of it.

So how is everyone else's journies going? Keep me posted, hopefully I can be at the computer to read some blogs tomorrow.

Until tomorrow... 8)

Day 5!

Today wasn't bad...my eating was ok. I did do my zumba today. Also went to walmart which I always consider a workout because I end up walking around the store a million times getting stuff I forgot. But despite all of that, I just feel kinda bloated right now...like im really really super fat. I go back to work from maternity leave in less than 2 weeks and I still haven't tried my work pants/slacks back on because I dread them not fitting. I have discovered that even if you weigh less than you did before, if your clothes lay dormant for a period of time they shrink!!! Lol!!
I did get to watch the biggest loser tonight, and although I absolutely love Bob...that new male trainer is freaking hot!!! Thats all I can say. Haha. I think it's ironic that the mom on the black team has gained weight so many times to try to throw the weigh in so it will be her that goes home and when the black team finally does lose a weigh in, she is the biggest loser and has immunity. Karma anyone??

Tomorrow WILL be better. Until next time... 8)